birthday

I turned 41 today, its really just another day, Im not in the usual festive mood as I used to be, just too much on my mind....standing at a crossroad staring into the lights flickering unknowns....

I must say I did have 3 nice celebrations with my good friends! The first one was with my good friend Eugene and his daughter, the 2nd one was with my aunt Ellie and another good friend, the 3rd one was organized by my good old bro Mel and the gang! You will always know who is a true friend at the end of the day! Its not about the gifts, its all about how they remember your day and make the effort to spend the time with you!

Another really touching thing is this iPhone cat recording from an old schoolmate Nancy saying wishing me happy birthday and somehow she uploaded it to Facebook! Its the sweet gesture that makes it so meaningful!

This morning I saw a Tiffany box sitting on my desk with a tiny card next to it placed by my hubby the night before when I was asleep, as usual like a tradition! My hubby got me a square shape necklace, he wrote on the card "simple, fair and square, life isnt always so but you are always true to yourself, remain so for this is why i love my sweet little bee...." He always picks out a piece and writes up some sort of philosophical verse that symbolizes what he chose, he really should have become either a poet or philosopher or even a lawyer, never a businessman, sometimes I really dont understand why my mother in law pushes him into the biz world cuz he is just not made for it, he is too kind and honest to be in it!

Be true to myself, have I been so? is it really the way to be in this day and age? I really wonder!

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak...sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go." - Unknown

In this world it is not what we take up, but what we give up, that makes us rich.... Henry Ward Beeche

yes, learning to let go.........40+1 is definitely a milestone!

random thoughts

Many of us or most of us spend a good portion of our time in our career, running in and out of the hustle and bustle, either trying to make a living or seeking to make more wealth out of what we intent. We overlook what is really important to us, health! Not just a strong physical but a good balance of mind and soul as well.

Money takes away the conscience, overshadows true virtues, brings out the very ugly side of human nature, power and status blind us, a never ending pursue of the higher, greed is the ultimate sin of all this....

Seeing too much around me, friends, relatives, even the closest kindred, full of lies, betrayal, hypocrisy, pretentiousness, sadly that nobody or very few knows or understands the word "content".....overlooks the most important thing is having good health and treasure what they already have.

Having seen enough all my life especially gone through several roller coasters the past 12 years, I have decided to live my life, spend time only with my love ones and the few good friends. Our time is too precious to waste on the mundane.

For my daughters, I wish them good health and happiness, only these are the real wealth one can ever attain.

melodrama

Winston Churchill said we are masters of our fate and captains of our soul, I wish I can say the same.
My fate has taken a different path, it seems to be flying away from where I wish the destination is. My soul is lost in this trance; still searching and finding its way out!

The past 3 years of our life has been like a melodrama and sadly, we are not even the actors/actresses. As if there is a director out there remote controlling the entire play!